Journal #5: Crossroads

Time is an interesting entity. It feels like I haven’t straightened my hair in a month, but I cannot be certain. I can be sure, however , that I have been wearing my version of an afro for about two weeks now. Why am I indecisive? It is the same issue as before. I am still contemplating doing the big chop, but I have not cut my hair (not since the bob). My hair is still two textures and I cannot recall my hair texture from my youth. I wonder if it was always this way, if there is still a residual affect from the relaxer, or is the chop will not change anything. Here is a list of my pros and cons:

Pros

Removal of damaged hair

Starting with a clean slate

No more ambiguity

I would be able to do a wash and go without compromising

Cons

I cannot cut it (Scissors can only cut so much)

Stress has prevented my nails from growing, and I am concerned that the same will happen to my hair

• Brief side note: My nails normally grow long without breakage/chipping. They have grown as much because this has been a very challenging school year

I couldn’t change my hair style because I wouldn’t have hair

• I enjoy change, but I would be forced to chill and see the same hair style week after week, month after month

The possibility of nothing changing is also preventing me from cutting my hair

I will continue to wait on Debra to see if her texture has reverted to its tru state of oneness. Once I get that confirmation, changes will be made. I will keep you posted!

Journal #4: A to the fro

Debra and I have been trying to figure something out for the past few weeks. The question, that neither one of us can answer right now, is can we return to having one hair texture? She is braver than I am because she decided to do the “big chop” almost two weeks ago. I am anxious to see how her hair grows. As for me, it has been a few week since cutting my bob and using the kera care products, and I like the reults. Today, I decided to wash my hair. Unlike every other week, I did not style with gel, bantu knots, or flat twists. I merely washed, conditioned, and combed my hair. My hair is soft and the texture, as well as the length, almost look uniform. I plan on rocking an afro puff for several days until I wash and style my hair again. I will post a video tomorrow after my classes (the week before finals is rough!).